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 DECIPHERING IT

 

Title:  Deciphering It   (Third in a triptych.  First two were Selling It and Buying It)

Rating:  PG
Characters:  House, Wilson
Genre:  Friendship, Hurt/Comfort
Word Count:  850
TimeLine:  Sometime prior to the Season Four finale, pre-Amber 

Summary:  Last time House’s pain went over the top, he tried to sell Wilson on a lie.  Wilson bought it—for a while, anyway.  What happens now, when Wilson decides he’s not standing in line this time for one of House’s cleverly constructed mink coats?

And btw, this has heretofore been unseen by human eyes.  If it stinks, feel free to say so.

 

 

House removes his reading glasses, sighs, rubs wearily at his face.  “I could’ve sworn I already threw you out of here a few minutes ago,” he says.

“And now I’m back,”  Wilson observes brightly as he settles himself comfortably in the Eames chair.  “Sorry it took so long, ran into Debbie from Accounting.  She was wearing a new sweater, and… well, you know.” 

Wilson grins widely at House, who returns a half-hearted smile.  House looks more than weary; he’s got that bone-tired exhaustion, the fatigued posture of a man who’s been battling hard—and losing.  He’s trying to hide it, and he’s been pretty successful so far.  He thinks his sharp, cruel tongue has probably set a few room-clearing records in the last couple of days.  But this is Wilson, and the only way to hide it from Wilson is to… well, get away from Wilson

House rises slowly from his chair, stretches his limbs cautiously, takes a deep breath.  He can feel Wilson’s eyes taking in every move, every facial expression he makes.  So he’s careful to keep his face, his eyes, blank.  And when he speaks, he puts all his strength behind the words.  “It’s 6:20; I’m outta here.  See you Monday.” 

House tries to ignore Wilson standing and following him out of the office.  Following him to the elevator.  Following him on the elevator!  “Don’t you have a lab tech to chase?  Or a bedtime story to read?  Or something?” 

“No; thought I’d give you a ride home, though.  You look worn out; best if you leave the bike here, don’t you think?”  

“I didn’t ride the bike.  Got a perfectly good bus stop right in front of my place.”  Damn; now he’s gonna make something out of that. 

But all Wilson says is, “I happen to be going your way; c’mon.” 

When the elevator opens, House follows Wilson to his car.  He tells himself it’s easier than arguing. 

“Need you to stop at that Korean place,” House says shortly.  “Gotta get something for dinner.  My dinner.” 

“Not a problem.” 

When Wilson pulls up in front of the restaurant, he follows House from the car.  At House’s dirty look, he responds, “What?  I gotta eat too.” 

When they arrive at the counter, House introduces Wilson.  “This is my new puppy.  Name’s Wilson, and he’s taken to following me everywhere.  You in the market for some really tender dog meat for your next batch of Suyuk?” 

Wilson just rolls his eyes, steps forward, orders—and pays for—two meals, while House shakes his head. 

When they arrive at his apartment, House half-heartedly tries a, “Thanks; see you later.”  He exits the car with as much speed as he can muster, and winces when he hears a second door slam behind him, followed by rapid footsteps. 

House stops dead, whirls around so quickly that Wilson bumps into him.  “If I told you to just… toddle off, would you?” 

“Nope,” Wilson says cheerily. 

House pulls his cell phone from his pocket.  “Wonder how long it’d take for a restraining order,” he mumbles, then his eyes widen as Wilson plucks the phone from his hand and stuffs it into his own pocket.  He glares at Wilson, who simply grins back at him and resumes walking. 

House sighs, then follows behind him at a slower pace.  Funny, though; the pain, unremitting for several days, seems to be letting up just a little. 

Once they’re settled on the couch with their meals, Wilson says casually, “I read an interesting article the other day.  Some new study comparing the efficacy of identical doses of pain meds in cancer patients who live alone, and again when they’re hospitalized.  Seems the meds were much more effective during hospitalization.  The researchers concluded that simple solitude magnifies pain.  Imagine that.” 

House feigns boredom.  “Fascinating,” he says, tossing his plate on the table and lying back on the couch.  Wilson scoots to the end without comment. 

House has no trouble figuring out the coded message.  What he is having trouble with is why Wilson’s sending it.  I’d almost think he knows what’s going on.  Must be losing my touch.  Or… maybe Wilson’s been wearing his decoder ring this week. 

The other thing House is having trouble with is the feeling in his chest; gratitude’s got a hammer in there, and it’s pounding off the sharp edges of fear, resentment… loneliness.  It’s disconcerting, confusing. 

House is distracted from his thoughts when Wilson returns from the kitchen carrying a fresh beer.  He watches as Wilson sits carefully in the small space between House’s feet and the end of the couch.  He opens his mouth to complain that his feet are now scrunched up against Wilson—but he doesn’t.

Wilson kicks off his shoes, pops the top on his beer, puts his feet up on the table, and leans back, sighing contentedly.  He picks up the remote and locates a Law & Order marathon.  “Oh, great,” he says happily.  “This is scheduled to run all night.  Hey—can I get you anything?”

Amazingly, I have every damned thing I need, right here.  “No,” he mumbles tiredly, and closes his eyes.  He’s asleep before the opening credits roll.

Wilson smiles.

 

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Date: 2008-10-14 04:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blackmare-9.livejournal.com
Oh, my. I really love the "new puppy/dog meat" line at the restaurant, and ... that study on pain meds is real, I would imagine.

The only things that "bump" for me are a couple mild instances in which I don't think Wilson sounds quite like Wilson; a little more bouncy in the first scene than we know him to be. "You did" would be perfect without the "Now I'm back!"

I truly wish we could actually see Canon!Wilson behave like this, though, giving what House actually needs rather than what Wilson imagines he needs.

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Date: 2008-10-14 05:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
changed 'you did' to 'and'-- but i was actually going for a bit bouncy, to, you know, get on house's nerves instead of being all solicitous and everything; hence the 'wilson observes brightly.' but that's what i get for writing and posting in the same motion--was worth a try.

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Date: 2008-10-14 05:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] srsly-yes.livejournal.com
Loved this. <3

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Date: 2008-10-14 05:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
just a bit of fluff for a long and cloudy day; thanks.

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Date: 2008-10-14 05:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] j-house-addict.livejournal.com
Great addition to the previous 2. I liked the end, very satisfying and a great way to end. Everyone is satisfied and "happy" if they even can be.

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Date: 2008-10-14 05:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
we don't want 'em too happy, but yeah, an occasional warm-and-fuzzy is kind of nice.

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Date: 2008-10-14 06:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chickloveslotr.livejournal.com
He’s asleep before the opening credits roll.
Wilson smiles.

AWWWWWW
a big dose of Fluffity Fluff Fluff Fluff!
Thanks sooo much!
I needed that!

*gives you milk and cookies*

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Date: 2008-10-14 07:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
*gives you milk and cookies*

accepts gratefully; thanks.

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Date: 2008-10-14 06:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] arhh.livejournal.com
That was so sweet. Finally Wilson getting a clue. Thanks so much for sharing :)

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Date: 2008-10-14 07:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
i needed warm and fuzzy today--happy to share!

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Date: 2008-10-14 07:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chaoskir.livejournal.com
I do love your Wilson and more than that I do need your Wilson. I hope you will write much more. You are a great author and it's wonderful to read your fics. Thanks so much for sharing them.

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Date: 2008-10-14 07:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
as always, you are quite welcome. thanks for being so appreciative.

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Date: 2008-10-14 07:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blackmare-9.livejournal.com
Yup, that works for me now. :-) Wilson really can be annoying, can't he?

Know what else I love?

He tells himself it's easier than arguing. Which is true, but not the truth, and it's so like House to admit one part while dismissing the other, more relevant reason.

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Date: 2008-10-14 07:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
yes, he can.

no....

house has a reason--a damned sound reason--for everything he does.

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Date: 2008-10-14 08:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] misanthropicobs.livejournal.com
I really like this ending to the tryptic. It's so very good seeing House & Wilson sitting in the same room just enjoying the evening & each other's company.

Wilson's knowledge of his friend comes into play in a very good way here, as does his method of letting House know that he is aware of what is happening with the level of House's pain. It's the only way that House is going to go along with having Wilson show they care for him.

I also liked House's inability to admit even to himself that he needs or deserves aid from anyone. His walls are so thick that it's only like this that he can accept help - if it comes without any overt indication that is what in fact is taking place. Wilson made just enough of a pest of himself that House COULD use that as his justification. Yes, in a way it is manipulative, but it's manipulative in a way that we haven't seen in canon for a very long time. I've missed seeing that level of concern and just being together.

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Date: 2008-10-14 09:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
i needed this today, and--doubting i'll get it from the show--i thus had to create it. and i'm always happy to share.

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Date: 2008-10-14 09:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] angelcat2865.livejournal.com
This left me smiling:)Thank you so much for sharing it.

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Date: 2008-10-14 09:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
you're welcome! :)

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Date: 2008-10-14 09:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lab38.livejournal.com
Doesn't "stink" at all... :) Quite the contrary really. I can't begin to tell you how many things I loved about this!

'But this is Wilson, and the only way to hide it from Wilson is to… well, get away from Wilson.'
Very nice, bitter-sweet ironic touch in there. Fit the mood perfectly! :)

'But all Wilson says is, “I happen to be going your way; c’mon.”'
Understated, kind, sensitive. So very Wilson (as we used to know him...). :) I heard him say it.

'The other thing House is having trouble with is the feeling in his chest; gratitude’s got a hammer in there, and it’s pounding off the sharp edges of fear, resentment… loneliness. It’s disconcerting, confusing.'
This killed me. You have such a great way writing House heart-breakingly vulnerable, yet completely in-character. This was absolutely amazing...

Thank you so very much for sharing this! You've just brightened my day... :)

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Date: 2008-10-14 09:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
So very Wilson (as we used to know him...)

oh, and i miss him so!

and i'm happy the wee warm/fuzzy that i needed could cheer you up as well!

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Date: 2008-10-14 10:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] smiddlecn.livejournal.com
See how many people's days you are brightening with your story? That is so cool...and add me to the list! Today someone broke into my car (bashed in the back window) and I'm reeling at the quote to repair it, so a warm, caring House story was very much welcome with open arms!

I smiled at the restraining order line, and the comment about Wilson the puppy.

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Date: 2008-10-14 10:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
ohh--i am so sorry to hear that; i hope nothing was stolen, and that the repair is done quickly and cheaply! and i'm really, truly glad that the story could help your awful day be not quite so bad.

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Date: 2008-10-15 01:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] aiatalay.livejournal.com
heeheeeheee


that was cute :)

is there more hiding somewhere in your head?

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Date: 2008-10-15 01:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
yes, there is--but angstier. and it's being terribly shy about fully revealing itself to me, i'm afraid. but i'm working on it.

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Date: 2008-10-15 05:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] angelfirenze.livejournal.com
Yeah, I, too, loved the 'puppy' line. I have had House, Cuddy, and Wilson's relationship ruined by canon so this is welcome respite. I'm not nearly as disappointed in tonight's episode as I know others are. But I did not want House and Wilson to reconcile and that they threw themselves at one another tonight dismayed me a great deal. In fact, dismayed isn't the word because the complete lack of communication and resolution exhibits how truly pathetic they each are.

So, yes, I wholeheartedly enjoy being able to read fanfiction where the two of them aren't complete sociopathic idiots. Because canon is so disturbing, it's just not funny.

That was one of those non-reviewing reviews again, wasn't it? Sorry about that. I really love seeing House and Wilson in a relationship where House isn't the only one ever expected to give as well as take. I do wish that Wilson had actually gotten the hint and left when House told him to, but that's also canon talking.

The fact that House was helped by his presence was refreshing. I certainly enjoyed your reference of RSL's love of Law & Order and didn't spend the entire time conducting another sermon on the mount. Like I said, a vacation.

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Date: 2008-10-15 01:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
actually, that wasn't a reference to rsl's love of l&o--or only indirectly. i simply used it because it's the only other show i watch, so it was the first one that jumped to mind. that he enjoys it in real life is simply a happy coincidence.

last night's episode? i was neither particularly disappointed, nor particularly moved. i'm in the process now of writing out my thoughts on it.

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Date: 2008-10-15 05:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chocolate-frapp.livejournal.com
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. (and I liked the dog meat joke, but then I can't stand Korean food)

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Date: 2008-10-15 05:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
glad you got a giggle out of that--i don't like any oriental food, myself. and the idea of... oh, it's just too horrible to contemplate! :)

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Date: 2008-10-15 11:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mich8283.livejournal.com
My only complaint is that I could have lived 100 lifetimes without hearing the dog meat thing... urgh. Just ew. HOWEVER... just because I didn't like it doesn't mean I don't think it wasn't a very good line because it was.

Otherwise it was a great big fluffy blanket of House and Wilson. Very comforting.

I loved the little things, like House realizing Wilson was going to follow him in and then later, House was going to complain that his feet were scrunched but he doesn't.

The comment from Wilson about the study on pain and solitude was a good one. (And I have to say I again found myself commenting aloud, "Ain't that the truth!" Maybe that will be my new thing, commenting aloud on your stories, thank goodness I live alone.)

The best bit was House falling asleep in the comfort of his friend.

:D Big happy grins from me!

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Date: 2008-10-15 11:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
Big happy grins from me!

which are contagious, because they cause big happy grins from me--thanks!!

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Date: 2008-10-16 12:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hibernia1.livejournal.com
How can you even think it stinks? I love Wilson in this, he's like the Wilson from the first season that I miss so much, the Wilson who looks out for House, and figures out what he needs, and who sees further than the cruel tongue. That article does sound interesting, and true, too. And add me to the list of people who laughed at the puppy-line! I really love this story, thanks so much for sharing!!

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Date: 2008-10-16 02:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
How can you even think it stinks?

i didn't say i think it stinks; i wouldn't have posted it had i thought it wasn't good enough to be posted. however, i'm hyper-aware that when i play the write-and-post game, that the end result may not read to the collective you as it does to the singular me. and--had that been the case this time--i just wanted to know, is all.

glad it made you laugh, and you're quite welcome!!

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Date: 2008-10-16 05:46 pm (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
I read this after watching "Birthmarks", and I just went all gooey and mushy inside. Not to say though that this can't make me all gooey and mushy inside before I even watched that episode. However, I guess I was a bit surprised (delightfully so) and puzzled (but in a good way) that you concluded the triptych in this manner. There's this tiny, tiny part of me that wants to reject this as "the natural progression of things between House and Wilson" due in part to all the HW hype going on, but then...oh, I don't know. Maybe I should just thank you in advance for helping to ease me into the idea that House and Wilson are likely to end up sharing a couch in this manner, whether it be this season or two seasons from now. I guess from now on, I should wipe off the naughty smirk I get whenever I see them together and start thinking that such intimate interaction between the two has no subconscious agenda to it that speaks to the whole of humanity as represented by television viewers but instead is just simple love between two people that needs no explaining. *sigh* Haha!

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Date: 2008-10-16 05:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
just simple love between two people that needs no explaining

well... that's how i've always viewed it, anyway. for me, there is no slash, and i view the subtext [and oh, yes, there is subtext] as just another expression of their love for one another, their bond--a safe and humorous way of acknowledging the depth of their feelings for one another.

we all enjoy their dynamic, though--however we view it. and that's what's important, right? glad you enjoyed the story!

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Date: 2008-10-16 06:32 pm (UTC)
ext_25649: House sucking a lollipop while staring at Wilson (Default)
From: [identity profile] daisylily.livejournal.com
Ooh, that's lovely - so very them. Wilson comforting House and House pretending that he isn't accepting it.

*mems*

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Date: 2008-10-16 06:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
so very them

so very seasons-one-and-two them, and maybemaybemaybe the-rest-of-season-five them! wouldn't that be... oh, gosh.....

thanks so much! :)

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Date: 2008-10-19 05:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickey-p.livejournal.com
Stinks? No. Absolutely not. Smells a lot better than Canon, actually. And as for them not reading fanfic? Yeah..right. Bullpucky. Methinks they doth protest too much.

This was nice. This made me smile. Which I had not done, not once today..had a bad night with pain and repeated trips back and forth from bed to bathroom. Nothing quite like picking up an intestinal bug 3 weeks post abdominal surgery. I miss my Darvocet. (Vicodin makes me nauseous!)


Done whining now..
Mick

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Date: 2008-10-19 02:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
so, so sorry to read of your discomfort, and so glad that the story was able to bring a smile. i remember the recovery from that particular surgery--unfun, even without the 'flu. i've found, btw, that for hydro- or oxy-codone-induced nausea, pink lemonade has magical properties.

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Date: 2008-10-22 01:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hansolo5.livejournal.com
Im SO happy you're back!
I hope you're fine. I am , because you're back :-)

Thanks for sharing your talent.

I'm up only to the first three eps, I don't know when I will watch the others , but I'll stay tuned on your little House in the woods!

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Date: 2008-10-22 01:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kidsnurse.livejournal.com
thanks so much! i'm glad to be writing again, and more than happy to share. :-)